The Author.
★Yeo Hui Fen Linda.
★19th January 1989.
★Ex-SMPS/SMSS.
★SP-DEEE.
★Symphonic Band-Percussion.
★Cotton On.
★WRETCH.
★FACEBOOK.
LOVES:
♥Family.
♥Cliqque.
♥SMSS girlfriends.
♥SP Friends.
♥Cotton On Friends.
♥FCs Friends.
IDOLS:
WISHLIST:
♥HDD.[granted]
♥Instax camera.[granted]
♥DSLR camera.
♥Fisheye camera.
♥iTouch/iPhone.[granted]
♥Have Lots Of Money.
♥Dream Job.
♥Bright Future.
Talks.
Byeees.
★CLIQQUE:
♥Cliqque
♥Jeanna
♥Jolyn
♥Kellyn
♥Linda
♥March
♥MeiLin
♥SookFung
★Fan Club:
♥Adelene
♥Apple
♥Brenda
♥Bunny
♥Cassandra
♥Casslyn
♥Daphne
♥Emily
♥Gracie
♥Hazel Ng
♥Hazel Yong
♥Jacqueline
♥Jolene
♥Josette
♥Josey
♥Kae
♥Linx
♥LiTing
♥Melissa
♥Rachel
♥RuiZhen
♥Shanice
♥Shermaine
♥SuHan
♥Theresa
♥TingFang
♥Wendy
♥XianJiao
♥YanChiew
♥YuBing
★Idols:
♥Arron Yan
♥Ah Wei
♥Ao Quan
♥Calvin
♥Da Dong
♥Danson Tang
♥Ice
♥Prince
♥Wu Chun
♥Xiao Yu
★Singapore Polytechnic:
♥Audrey Lee
♥Chester
♥ChongXiang
♥Edmond
♥Emily
♥FangYu
♥GuoShu
♥Grace
♥HuiShi
♥KayMiang
♥KhehHong
♥LiTing
♥Randy
♥Shi Tian
♥SP Band
♥Stella
♥TiacWoo
♥WenLing
♥WenShao
♥WenXiang
★St.Margaret's:
♥Amanda Poh
♥Audrey Siow
♥Bandnanas
♥Eunice Tan
♥Faiznur
♥Joycelyn
♥KayMinn
♥Kristen
♥Elizabeth
♥ShuWen
♥Stacey
♥St.Margaret's Winds
♥WeiTing
♥XiuXiang
♥Yanqi
♥Yvonne
♥Zijing
★Woo.com:
♥Abrenda
♥Joanne
♥Kelly
♥Yu
♥YuQing
♥雅K
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Wednesday, June 15, 2011,
♥ 12:40 AM
Recently many things are happening around me.Family, Work and Love.
Family,
Doubt anyone read this blog anyway. So I'm just gonna blog it here.
The doctors once again found tumors in my mum's body. It's at her liver this time round. No matter what, she had to go through chemo. I know my mum didn't wanna go through all these, she is afraid of the pain and losing of hair. At first she didn't want to do it, but thanks to my brothers, she agreed.
I cannot imagine life without her. Afterall I have been relaying on my parents for 22 years. If *touch wood* she really pass away, I swear I don't know what I will do. I might even just end my life with her. Thats how much I need her. I love her too much to see her suffer. Though I have been trying to keep myself busy with work, but at the end of the day, every night on my bed, I couldn't stop worrying. Causing me to lack of sleep.
Which is way I prefer going clubs or drinking sessions to numb myself every night from all these worries. Dear GOD, please, don't take make my mum suffer anymore. I believe she had enough, and PLEASE do not take her away from our family. Thank you.
Work,
Like I said, working almost everyday. Just wanna tired myself out. The store is getting used to our new Store Manager, Ling. =)
GSS is killing us, but yeah, I'm sure we can handle it.
Love,
I guess I have seen through him? I don't know, but I think he have been behaving irresponsibility. Somemore it's with the people I know. And all the incidents always happen to be me who started everything. Just what do you want dude?! I'm feeling guilty towards them thanks to you. Yeah, I do have positive feelings for you. But to tell the truth, it's no longer strong. I'm beginning to hate it. I'm serious.
I'm starting to draw that line up. Because I don't wanna hate a person, moreover a friend. Please dude, know your limits.
Sunday, May 01, 2011,
♥ 1:55 AM
We were once an AWESOME team.Many changes lately in PS's Cotton On. First, Amos was transferred to Hougang and Nadz joined our big family. Then many part-timers quit. Serena, Amy, SohWynn, Xiu Zhen, Regina and etc. On Thursday, I was being told that Niza will be transferring to Hougang to join Amos and new SM will be coming in. And tonight I received a message from FooWen. It was a farewell message.
I missed all the fun I had with them. Though they always made fun of me and joke with me. Amos who always sent me home when we end work late. Niza who always jio for movie dates and FooWen, who always asked me not to do free labour. They all cared for me. I know that, I don't know if the new in-charge will be as close as I was with them, but I'm really gonna miss them all.
I think maybe I always thought to myself "aiya, not all three will be leaving." But this time round it's all three of them. Sometimes I don't even have to say anything they will what I'm thinking. It's the sudden losing of all your managers that made me just wanna cried out loud. [I'm crying while typing this actually.] I'm really lost, lost of words. All I know is that "They are not gonna appear in front of me so often as it used to be anymore." Like what people always tells you "People tend to treasure what they have lost more than when they have them." I'm feeling exactly the same way now.
I know I'm over reacting. I hate myself for being that. Because I never over react in any of these before. I know we can meet up and all. But it's won't be the same last time, no? No more crazy late night movies, drinking sessions until people starts bringing bottles home not knowing it and crazy clubbing experiences that I had with them. I just miss them.
Dear Niza, FooWen & Amos,
If you guys happen to find my blog and read this, I wanna say "Thank You & Sorry." I know you guys had to put up with my black faces or attitude problems while sometimes pissed you off. I'm Sorry. Thanks for teaching me a lot of stuffs. Not only stuffs about Cotton On, but stuffs about working life, an adult's life. I did learned a lot from all of you. It was an honour to have a chance to work with you all. Do keep in contact.
Love,
Linda.
I missed all the fun I had with them. Though they always made fun of me and joke with me. Amos who always sent me home when we end work late. Niza who always jio for movie dates and FooWen, who always asked me not to do free labour. They all cared for me. I know that, I don't know if the new in-charge will be as close as I was with them, but I'm really gonna miss them all.
I think maybe I always thought to myself "aiya, not all three will be leaving." But this time round it's all three of them. Sometimes I don't even have to say anything they will what I'm thinking. It's the sudden losing of all your managers that made me just wanna cried out loud. [I'm crying while typing this actually.] I'm really lost, lost of words. All I know is that "They are not gonna appear in front of me so often as it used to be anymore." Like what people always tells you "People tend to treasure what they have lost more than when they have them." I'm feeling exactly the same way now.
I know I'm over reacting. I hate myself for being that. Because I never over react in any of these before. I know we can meet up and all. But it's won't be the same last time, no? No more crazy late night movies, drinking sessions until people starts bringing bottles home not knowing it and crazy clubbing experiences that I had with them. I just miss them.
Dear Niza, FooWen & Amos,
If you guys happen to find my blog and read this, I wanna say "Thank You & Sorry." I know you guys had to put up with my black faces or attitude problems while sometimes pissed you off. I'm Sorry. Thanks for teaching me a lot of stuffs. Not only stuffs about Cotton On, but stuffs about working life, an adult's life. I did learned a lot from all of you. It was an honour to have a chance to work with you all. Do keep in contact.
Love,
Linda.
Saturday, March 05, 2011,
♥ 3:14 AM
Today was spent with babies~ XD
Went to play with Emery this afternoon. My little boy is growing really fast! He made all of us danced together with him. He reacted to music, really cute! Reached home around 7plus. Then Ah Beng bought his maid and Jenson to my house. Ah Beng is my cousin, Jenny's husband. So Jenson was under our care while he went to play mahjong with my brother and my daddy. I'm in love with Jenson totally! He is always smiling! Whenever you smile at him, he will smile back! XD This 5months old boy loves to watch TV, I tell you! His eyes were only on my for 5sec and moved to TV again! LOL!
Anyway, left house around 9.45pm to PS to buy tickets. Since Niza messaged us asking whether we wanna watch late night movie. So I agreed to go. And since I was the most free one, I went to buy the tickets. We settled on Black Swan. Had a pretty long chat with FooWen & Alex while waiting for Niza & Amos to rack the store up.
Movie was at 2350, we went in at 0015? The best part, I told them cinema 7, FooWen was like "Which part of the "2" looks like "7" to you?" LOL! Anyway about the movie, I think it's one awesome movie. Seriously, the movie have everything and I really love the storyline. It wasn't boring at all! Totally entertaining to me! There was a scene that I got scared and I realized Amos jumped also [he was sitting next to me]. hahahah! And the next moment I heard FooWen asking Amos "Aye, this movie horror meh?!" I totally cannot stop laughing la! It's really fun watching movie with FooWen! When we came out from the cinema, FooWen was like "I don't understand whats the movie about. Horror?!" All of us couldn't stop laughing at all! Then Amos explained to him the whole story. Alex also couldn't understand the movie too. Niza didn't like it, cause she wanted to watch something relaxing after work, not something heavy. Amos was like "This is a good movie! No wonder its in Oscar!" LOL! But seriously people, go watch it if you haven't catch it in the cinema! Totally worth the money! I put this movie above "Love and the other drugs" and "No Strings Attached" Then we started talking about movies like "House Of Wax", "SAW", "Final Destination" and etc...
Went home with Niza tonight instead of the usual Amos. Since FooWen drove, he can send him home. They were unhappy(?) about me saying "I can go home by myself, seriously." and Amos said "You happy can already." also kinda of irritating. Opps, oh well, its difficult for me to not say this. =X But seriously saying I was really fine going home myself, I don't like to trouble people. No hard feelings. =D
Okay, it's already 3:37! Time to sleep. Gonna be busy tomorrow cleaning up the house. Class gathering on Sunday with GuoShu & Co. plus night shift after that. JIAYOU! =D night!
Friday, February 25, 2011,
♥ 1:54 AM
崩溃了...
I don't know how to start this post. Tears haven't been stopping after I reached home. I'm worried, the fear that I had 5 years ago is back. Why? Why again? This time round is only 25%, I know I should be thinking positive, I am. But I cant bear to see her suffer all these all over again. She had enough, shouldn't she be enjoying her life now and not suffer all these?! Sometimes I really hope that I could help her with all the pain she is suffering.
Friends, don't expect me to be smiling and joking like before for this period of time. I need to not be myself for once.
Felt sorry for Amos just now. Was going home with him after we ended work at 1am. He offered to send me home first, but I didn't want to. Instead, I sent him home. He was trying to pay for the cabfare then I just raised my voice and said "No need!" He was shocked, I know. [Sorry, once again.] Because I saw his expression.
I really hope all these will end soon. I never like to go through all these again. Why can't I just lead a normal life like any other girls/family?
Friends, don't expect me to be smiling and joking like before for this period of time. I need to not be myself for once.
Felt sorry for Amos just now. Was going home with him after we ended work at 1am. He offered to send me home first, but I didn't want to. Instead, I sent him home. He was trying to pay for the cabfare then I just raised my voice and said "No need!" He was shocked, I know. [Sorry, once again.] Because I saw his expression.
I really hope all these will end soon. I never like to go through all these again. Why can't I just lead a normal life like any other girls/family?
Thursday, February 24, 2011,
♥ 12:51 AM
Today was spent with love ones around me. Was late for study session with Kesin, so we ended up having break with Amos first. While I was eating Jolyn Whatsapp me. Which I totally stunned! Because it's Jolyn Lee! My replied to her was "Wah! Someone know whatsapp sia!" hahahah! Anyway, Jeanna and Jolyn came to find me. So we settled down at Starbucks with Kesin studying. I was TRYING to study while xoxo with them, but FAILED.
Told Jeanna and Jolyn many stuffs. Mostly about "i-think-i-might-have-feeling-for-him" kinda of thing. Jolyn was like "I knew it!" Okay, maybe most know it, but I didn't realized until recently. But trust me, I highly doubt we will be together. I don't even know what exactly I'm feeling now, so yeah. =/ Was telling them how I can never be like most of them who made lunch/dinner for their boyfriends and stuffs. Never had such xoxo session with them both of them for a long time already. Totally love it. =D
Jeanna and Jolyn left around 5plus. I headed back to my books again until I sms Amos asked if he wanna have dinner with Kesin and I. But He didn't reply, so I tweeted to Kesin who was sitting opposite me saying "Your daddy, (his username) never reply msg one sia." The next moment Amos smsed me and said "I got reply msg lor." Totally STUNNED! Started to laugh to myself after that. Oh, I saw Feissy Unnie! It was great seeing her again! I miss her so much!
Anyway, around 7plus a guy dressed in checked carrying a BRIGHT RED bag came. Yeah, Amos. Totally surprised. Because he actually told me he was gonna meet his friend. He appeared in front of me behind Kesin. LOL! We walked to Peace Centre to have chicken rice. Not nice! =( The rice taste weird. =S We chatted from 7plus to 9plus. Amos told us what he and his friends did in clubs. I tell you, after hearing I was like "OMG! I feel like I'm so innocent like a white paper!" Kesin and Amos just rolled their eyes. HAHAHAHAHAH! But seriously saying, those parties that I went is really nothing compared to his! Like peanuts please! XD
Then went PoMo's toilet. When we came out, Amos was like "aye, I wanna eat ice-creams." So we headed to MaDonalds. We went in twice to MaDonalds. Thanks to him. He wanna eat yet he wanna smoke. He was like "We buy liao then go out smoke, okay?" Which I don't get it. So I was like "Erm...Why cannot smoke outside liao, then come inside sit down and eat?" LOL! So we ended up smoking outside then came back in again. =D We were talking about what were the HOT STUFFS during our childhood life. Pager, handphones, Digimons, PollyPockets and etc... All I can say is Kesin is REALLY DAMN YOUNG! 92-er! *shake head* But it's okay, at least when I'm with them, Amos got the age-gap feel more than I. =P
We trained home after that. SohWynn, Kesin and I started spamming twitter like crazy. That bitch, SohWynn, he is always so funny! Never fail to entertain me.
Heading to SGH tomorrow with Mummy, then working closing after that. Long day ahead. Night people! =D
Happy Birthday Kim Kyu Jong!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011,
♥ 1:36 AM
So, nothing much today. Headed out at 1plus this afternoon. Bought KOI for Kesin, FooWen and myself. Saw Erica when I was on my way to get KOI. =D
Headed to store to pass them their drinks while I took the time to finish my Honey Greentea with Aiyu. Then went up to Starbucks to study while waiting for Kesin to end work at 6.30pm. We were supposed to be studying after dinner. (Note the "Supposed to")
So I studied alone from 3pm until 6ish pm when Juliana came and chat with me for awhile. I'm studied until my hands were numbed! Seriously, numb and shaky! I wasted my GreenTea Fab(As you can see from the photo above), oh well, it's free anyway. =S Kesin joined us shortly after, Juliana left while Kesin and I waited for Amos for dinner. We studied while waiting for him, okay?! LOL! Cause he said we can never study together. =/
Anyway, Amos and Foowen came and find us at Starbucks. Foowen left after smoking, while Amos suggested to head over to somewhere else to eat, plus he wanna watch movie and pass key to Niza. =) So we decided to go Yishun to find Niza. Amos was "haolian-ING" about some apps. He took a photo of Kesin and posted it on FB. He was so anxious about whether people got comment or not. Kept asking "got people comment?!" Totally LOL!
Niza and Niza's boyfriend, Alex joined at Yishun. So we decided to catch a movie. We watched "No Strings Attached" Hmmm, what can I say? It's pretty much the same as "Love and the Other Drugs" I watched both movies with the same group of people but this time round with Kesin. But seriously, watch this with your love ones or close friends. Just weird! Super weird! I nearly cry in the cinema, not because of the movie, but because the dog look so much like BoiBoi! I missed him! ='( How I wish he is still around. =/
Kesin headed home after movie, while the rest of us headed for a drink. Wanted to ask Andy out, but his wife is asleep so means he cant leave. Settled at some coffee shop. Guess what I had?! Teh! See, I don't drink so often okay? =D And I totally forgotten what we actually were talking about.
Cabbed home with Amos, as usual. We were chatting about mahjong and stuffs. Many rules and regulations sia. Was telling him how Meilin totally laugh at the "yellow dustbin is my hse" thanks to him and all that. =.= Was pretty irritated with the cab uncle, he didn't know what he was doing. What is wrong with cabs nowadays seriously?! ARGH!
Nights!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011,
♥ 9:27 PM
I was hopping that you will appear in front of me.Many of my friends must be wondering whats is going with me? Been partying and working, unlike my usual self who they knew 2years back.
Anyway, update about my life. Hmmm... school, pubs, clubs, work and shop. Yeah, as many know or who stalk me on twitter and facebook, I'm facing some relationship problems.
Have you ever have this problem? You have no idea whether it's love or because you got used to the person who is always there for you? Just when you are lost, another person popped out. I know I had been using him. He was really caring. He even offered to delivery food for me when I was sick at 2am. He took off on valentine's day and bought flowers for me however, I turned him down. I didn't wanna give me any false hope.
I don't know, but I really don't need a boy/guy to give me sweet talks or being romantic to me. All I really wanted in a relationship is a man who understands me and support me. I don't need a sticky boyfriend who keeps worrying about whether I clubs/pubs. I don't like to be asked about what I'm doing or where I am. I dont even mind if my other half clubs without me, just don't come bother with my life. I wanna lead the life that I even when I have my other half we still can lead our own life by ourselves, do whatever we want. Yes, we should have dates and all since afterall we are couple. But not those that meet everyday or every weekend. Maybe once a week? Sorry, but yeah, meeting everyday or reporting every single second it's a burden to me.
Let's just say, I'm not any girls who love roses or chocolates or gifts. I won't melt or anything when you said I was being silly or whatsoever. Sweet talking to me really just make me move away from you more.
Like I always said to friends, I'm kind to friends, but when it comes to relationship wise, I'm sorry to say, I'm heartless. Heartless to not only the opposite side but to myself to...